Just a few minutes while typing random words, trying to figure out what to write about, I finally stopped and prayed about what to write about. Then God tapped on my shoulder. It was almost as if He told me, “Tell them your story!” So today, here’s my story… the beginning, at least, of how I chose to be with the Big Guy.
As far as I can remember–even back to times when I even ate grass during recess–I’ve always gone to church. Most days, my dad would poke and/or thump me if I was kicking the pew in front of me. As a more dangerous, second resort, I would fall asleep during the sermon. Children’s choir, youth groups, small groups, Bible study–you name it, and I was involved in it. I was the role model Christian girl, and yet-here’s the truth-
I didn’t actually know God.
Bold statement, isn’t it? But it’s the truth because I only knew God and the Word on a SURFACE level. Honestly, until this last year, I couldn’t even tell you many of the Bible stories that I learned as a child. Whenever I read the Bible–meaning the New Testament, Psalms, and Proverbs–I enjoyed the verses that talked about how I could receive anything that I asked for in prayer… boy, now THAT is a whole other story! If this makes you feel better, too, I didn’t even know who Paul was until this past year! If you don’t know of these things, whoo hoo! , I’m so glad that you’re reading this because you are exactly where I was too!
So how did I go from having a shallow belief in God to where I am now, loving Him with all of my life? Here’s how…
My whole life, I spent all of my time and energy trying to be perfect, complete, whole. At a young age, I began to believe that I would only be acceptable when I was working and looking perfect. This seemed to be what made people like me, so wouldn’t that naturally be what made me acceptable to God?
Boy, could I have been more wrong! Here’s what I want you to see from this. I lived my whole entire life believing that I was a Christian without actually even knowing God.
This is the first part of my story. I hope you can relate, and keep checking in for the parts to come!